Dear Lilith...

Today's one of these days when I constantly feel like crying. It's like the weight of the world is on my shoulders today and most of all I miss my friend Lilith so much. On days like that I want to call her and then we would have dressed up for a coffee at Starbuck's and a few hours of chatting, laughing and gossiping about other people... But then I remember I can't do this anymore. It's so unfair that I am here and she isn't...

I know she probably wouldn't have liked that song but I love it and it describes perfectly how I feel...

In Memoriam...

[ via Hermi Kaliwoda ]

From Japan... with Love

Last night I met with Megu and Sachi, two of Lilith's lovely Japanese friends. They came to Vienna to visit her grave. We had - despite the sad circumstances - a really nice evening but I'm gonna tell about that later. They even brought me presents...

They also brought a big card to the grave with messages from all staff members of Lilith's favourite club in Tokio, which they read to her at the grave. I have yet to go there. But I confess, I'm a bit scared of how (much) this will affect me...

© Alex Kaliwoda

In Memoriam...

Lilith & me, November 2010

... of Lilith, one of my oldest and best friends. 

(1983 - 2011)

She passed away last night, after long disease. I don't know how to feel or how to put it into words. She's gone. I still feel helpless because there was nothing I could have done, apart from watch her suffer and fall apart. At least she does not have to suffer anymore.

May she rest in peace!